It’s spring, and I love the feeling of the sun on my face, the gentle breeze, mixed with humidity in the south Florida air, and the weirdly melancholy tone that spring seems to always bring around.
I find myself to be a bit melancholy in a bittersweet way around Spring and Fall, which also ends up being my two favorite seasons.
Now that I've finished studying, I find myself faced with a lot of “quietness”, quietness as in the air around me feels still and I feel weird not being occupied with something.
I’ve been off socials ever since I started studying for my test, and I’m wondering if that’s what it is. Now that I don’t have to study, I’m left with a weirdly open slate. I’m getting ready for my new job and making the most out of my time, but it’s weird to just sit in emotion without having something to distract you from it. Social media was always just this for me, something to pass the time. What can you do if you want to savor the moments instead of letting time slip away too quickly? I guess this is where I am right now. I don’t want this month to run from me, but I also must face the consequences of sitting with myself and often in silence.
Substack in my head doesn’t count as social media but correct me if I’m wrong, either way, I’ve been doing a lot of reflecting with all this “quiet” around me.
Writing snacks for today’s post, taro milk and some matcha snacks!
I tend to rewatch my most favorite indie and sometimes emotionally wrecking shows, and my favorite artists also tend to release their best bits and hits around this time.
I normally try to avoid buying books from Barnes and Noble in an attempt to save money and use our wonderful library system but as a little gift to myself post-MCAT I decided to ask the employees to lead me to their favorites and chose through them. They helped pick out “Ninth House” by Leigh Bardugo which so far has been interesting but more thoughts on that later as I’m still not completely hooked onto it. It’s funny because I fully marched into Barnes and Nobles to purchase “a little life”, somehow they persuaded me out of getting my heart wrecked. That book just never seems to land into my hands.
The fruit during the humidity of spring seems to taste better than usual. Our papaya plants have been flourishing and the garden has been nicer and nicer to sit in under the shade of the mango trees.
Recently, I’ve been rewatching a show on Netflix by the name of “Summer Strike” again and it just all comes rushing back to me, the feeling of watching it for the first time and wondering if maybe we all are just moving way too fast. The show surrounds a character who is just sick of working in her corporate job and being under appreciated. Once her mother dies she decides that she’s done with it all and takes a train to a random station to live the next year of her life unemployed and on her savings. While it did stress me out that she had quit her job, I did end up finding peace alongside her as her story progressed. I want my own type of summer strike even if it’s for a month. I’ve been imagining visiting a country for a month for a while now, but this time around, I’ve set a goal of going sometime next year. While I’m not completely sure where, I do know that I want to go for a month at least. Just to feel the type of peace she may have felt even for a second.
Onto more romantic bittersweet and melancholy topics!
Namjoon, a member of BTS just has some of my favorite solo discographies and had recently released a song (has now been on repeat for 24 hours in my head via headphones).
It’s so refreshing sometimes to sit in your feelings, letting it all wash over at once or maybe multiple times.
“I see you come back to me”, what are your thoughts on this masterpiece? It feels like I’m watching moving art if that makes any sense at all. That’s my treat for you for this week. I think it conveys how finding happiness makes moments and people around you brighter. It’s a sweet message that I definitely needed.
As promised, here is my “coffee” drink from blackgirlsblackworld!! Thank you again so much for buying me a drink!
I chose a Taro milk tea with cheese foam!!! Thank you :)
DELISH!
This was a short but sweet post :) I hope you enjoy that song, I tend to play it during relaxing activities these days.
with love and taro,
riya
eagerly awaiting the ninth house review!! i’m still not sure how i feel about it