spring has opened my heart
flowers bloom within me
Hello spring, hello rotters.
My life is finally starting, I’ve gotten into grad school. Just like I dreamed and cried for. I’m finally starting the adventure of a lifetime. In truth, I’m writing this in May, my announcement is much delayed, I’ve already begun school but for the sake of this article, enjoy my days of prepping for school (sorry for not posting it sooner).
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I’ve given myself the task of reading, laughing and doing more. The first time in my life that I can breathe slower. There really was no race, this was the perfect time for me. Maybe it’s my frontal lobe finally forming but for the first time ever, my life makes sense, I feel at ease. Every moment, every experience and every comment has formed me into a person that is ready for my next stage of life.
My friend Micaela’s birthday had gone by recently and only then did I discover that we were all just now starting life, I felt silly for even thinking that I was behind. I guess there really is no such thing. What a blessing to have these past two years filled with confusion and toil, only to now take away my doubt, and clear my head. Quitting my job and saying goodbye to my coworker was bittersweet, we had once lamented over our future and how grey the skies had seemed. Since our acceptances into school, the sky seemed a little bit bluer and the world a little bit nicer. How exhausting, to create doubts in your mind and let it run your life.
Media I’ve been loving in the theme of community and love:
Project Hail Mary
If you’re a lover of mankind and hope and science, give this a watch. Love surpasses space and time always! The one in love truly never loses.
I recently watched Project Hail Mary last week [long time ago now]. I thought the book was good when I read it pre-covid but seriously, the movie blew my mind. I’m feeling hope and so many emotions all at once. I’m so grateful for the opportunity to learn
Lars & The Real Girl
It’s difference between community and our current individualistic society is jarring for me.
spoilers
Lars is a shy sweet man who finds a doll online, who he dates and believes is real. The entire community, in a way to help Lars, pretends that this doll is real with him. This involves, the barbers, his church, his work, and his brother’s family. The entire community as a whole comes together out of love for Lars and wanting to help him.
Can we say that our society would do that?
This is also bringing me back to Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless mind, the entire community had decided to help the main characters move on by pretending that their exes didn’t exist.
I had once questioned my father on why he goes to church when he doesn’t agree with the sermon or the pastor. “For the community” he says. Our community is our strength, I didn’t even consider that my father was there to provide strength for others and to receive strength for himself. He felt lonely and was comforted by strangers, maybe more comforted than what I could offer him.
The movie Knives out showed this concept beautifully. Watch it and tell me what you think, it was a beautiful think piece on community. .
Josephine released another beautiful article, why not increase our chances for happiness and luck? Why not try it all, give ourselves the opportunity to experience . I love seeing her dispute the Bell Jar in this.
One of the school’s I subbed at had this song as their morning bell, how pretty.
“I can go the distance”, song in Hercules:
I have often dreamed
Of a far off place
Where a great, warm welcome
Will be waiting for me
Where the crowds will cheer
When they see my face
And a voice keeps saying
This is where I'm meant to be
I will find my way
I can go the distance
I'll be there someday
If I can be strong
I know every mile
Will be worth my while
I would go most anywhere
To feel like I belong
I am on my way
I can go the distance
I don't care how far
Somehow I'll be strong
I know every mile
Will be worth my while
I would go most anywhere
To find where I belong
As you can see, this song has been making me emotional, the lyrics are too good to be ignored. With that, I prep for this next stage of life. I apologize for the random mismatches of info here and there, I feel like my thoughts were a bit all over the place, maybe my next article would be more coherent.
Books/shows I’m reading/watching:
madonna in fur coat
sold with you
(this one is precious)
Books I want to read solely off the description:
Paulo Coelho’s The Alchemist— “that when you truly want something, the universe conspires to make it happen.”
Present day: May 2026
Week two is about to start soon, it’s so clear that this is where i’m meant to be. The lessons do not tire me, they make me feel alive. Truthfully speaking, this is the most alive I’ve ever been in my life. My friends are all at their beginnings, whether it’s marriage, finishing medical school, finishing P.A school or just the start of something new.
I received a picture of my wonderful friends together and even though I’m thousands of miles away honestly, it just made me smile. I feel good in this stage of life.
Life is so beautiful and I’m glad I never stopped trying to make it beautiful. I feel flowers of hope bloom at my feet. I’m so grateful for everyone and everything in my path, everything makes sense.
I feel relief over the person I have become in this life.
Life is not coming at us, it’s coming from within us.
with love and a lot of hope,
Riya
p.s I didn’t grammar check a single thing, hope you like it :)
